maelstrom.

no matter how many times you try to subdue this fire in water, submerge it beneath the sea.
it will never stop burning, it will never flicker out again.
it will forever keep me warm as painful as it may be.
i'll craft a home for it, made of stone and concrete.
i'll kiss the ceiling every night before i rest, bask in it's glow.
and when i greet each day, pull myself up to my feet.
i will feel it burning again, i will never forget this.
use it's light to guide the way, follow it's ember to my grave.
i'll live on in the night, blindly follow what i can't obtain.
i'll let this fire burn for all to see,
i'll let it main, burn and scold me.
i'll recover from the burn, i don't care about the pain.
the burning doesn't hurt so much once i've lost that who i felt
i've failed at this game once again, i quit way too fucking early.
my eye's are pleading 'put it out!' but my heart's screaming 'let it burn!'
i guess i must endure the pain, if i don't want to forget you
but the pain i feel from this is nothing when i compare,
it to the pain within my head. it's just as broken as my heart.

'i'm sorry dear, i have failed you again and again and again
but there's one thing i can't change. my love will never end.
i hope you'll be happy without me because i'm sure as hell not.
i'm gonna be alright, it hurts, it aches, it breaks.
i bought this on myself. i'm the fuck up in all of this.
in a way, i severed the ties. i ripped the sail from mast,
i burnt every single bridge. we swore this would be different
but i'm stuck here once again.'

today, tomorrow and tomorrow, i guess it's time you know; without you i'm so alone.
the flame will keep on burning, it will never stray from my chest,
the picture in my mind is still clear, my head against your breasts.
i'll forever long to feel secure, complete and and non-obsolete.
within your chest, within your arms, within every inch of this.
i'm falling into this maelstrom of misery,
please, my seraph, save me.